SASSOON: To FC April 1964 A bonny boy at the BBC (Overseas Talks and Features) writes requesting an interview, ‘I want to try and analyse the differences and similarities between the consequences expected and calculated by those influencing events at the time, and the real consequences in so far as as we can judge them 50 years on.’ He is referring to the 1914-18 war. He wishes to record my views. One word suffices. Rats.
The world sends me nothing except requests for war poems. Why can’t they realise that the war poems were improvised by an impulsive, intolerant, immature young creature, under the extreme stress of experience?
To Dame Hildelith Cumming 1964, Alone, written in 1924, has been one of my most successful poems.
I value it, because it was the first of my post-war poems, in which I discovered my mature mode of utterance.
“When I’m alone” – the words tripped off his tongue
As though to be alone were nothing strange.
“When I was young,” he said; “when I was young…”
I thought of age, and loneliness, and change.
I thought how strange we grow when we’re alone,
And how unlike the selves that meet and talk,
And blow the candles out, and say good night.
Alone… The word is life endured and known.
It is the stillness where our spirits walk
And all but inmost faith is overthrown.
I have seen a man at Lady Lucre’s table
Who stuck to serious subjects; spoke of Art
As if he were in earnest and unable
To ascertain its function in the smart
World where it shares a recreational part
With Bridge, best-selling Fiction, and the Stable.
I have seen her fail, with petulant replies,
To localize him in his social senses:
I have observed her evening-party eyes
Evicted from their savoir-faire defences.
And while his intellectual gloom encroached
Upon the scintillance of champagne chatter,
In impotent embarrassment she broached
Golf, Goodward Races, and the Cowes Regatta.
The luncheon over, Lady Lucre’s set
Lolled on her lawn and lacked an epithet
Sufficiently severe for such a creature . . .
‘Such dreadful taste!’ ‘A positive blasphemer!’
‘He actually referred to our Redeemer
As the world’s greatest socialistic teacher!’
DAME FELICITAS: In 1927 he settled in Wiltshire, and on his marriage purchased the immense, rambling Heytesbury House near Wraminster with its paddock and woodlands. Here he led the life of a country squire and wrote most of his six volumes of autobiography. They are marked by a profound feeling for the innocence of youth and a nostalgia for an English way of life destroyed by war and scientific advances.
(BRING UP THE SOUND OF A TROTTING HORSE)
He liked horses, he said, because like himself, thay refused to move with the times.
SASSOON: To watch the day breaking from purple to dazzling gold, while we trotted up a deep-rutted lane; to inhale the early freshness when we were on the sheep-cropped uplands; to stare back at the low country with its cock-crowing farms and mist-coiled waterways; thus to be riding out with a sense of spacious discovery – was it not something stolen from the lie-a-bed world?
There were beech woods, too, in the folds of the downs, and lovely they looked in the mellow sunshine, with summer’s foliage falling in ever-deepening drifts among their gnarled and mossy roots. There were beech woods, too, in the folds of the downs, and lovely they looked in the mellow sunshine, with summer’s foliage falling in ever-deepening drifts among their gnarled and mossy roots.
Alive – and forty five – I jogged my way
Across a dull green day,
Listening to larks and plovers, well content
With the pre-Roman pack-road where I went.
Pastoral and pleasant was the end of May.
But readers of the times had cause to say
That skies were brighter for the late Victorians;
And ‘The Black Thirties’ were a sobriquet
Likely to head the chapters of historians.
Above Stonehenge a drone of engines drew
My gaze; there seven and twenty war-planes flew
Maneuvering in formation; and the drone
Of that neat-patterned hornet-gang was thrown
Across the golden downland like a blight.
Cities, I thought, will wait them in the night
When airmen, with high-minded motives, fight
To save Futurity. In years to come
Poor panic-stricken hordes will hear that hum
And fear will be synonymous with flight.
Remember this when childhood’s far away:
The sunlight of a showery first spring day;
You from your house-top window laughing down,
And I, returned with whip-cracks from a ride,
On the great lawn below you, playing the clown.
Time blots our gladness out. Let this with love abide . .
.
The brave March day: and you, not four years old,
Up in your nursery world – all heaven for me.
Remember this – the happiness I hold –
In far off springs I shall not live to see;
The world one map of wastening war unrolled,.
And you, unconscious of it, setting my spirit free.
For you must learn, beyond bewildering years,
How little things beloved and held are best.
The windows of the world are blurred with tears,
And troubles come like cloud-banks from the west.
Remember this, some afternoon in spring,
When your own child looks down, and makes your sad heart sing.
DAME FELICITAS: How analyze my feelings after I studied your letter? I could sense your deep sadness and isolation, hopes dashed, disappointments scarcely admitted, general frustration. In broad outline that is the pattern your life has followed, isn’t it? It may spring from your own character. It may be God’s predestined plan, probably both. I did so hope that grandchildren would would bring love and joy into your last years.
Sassoon published no poetry during the Second World War. He simply endured and in 1945 summed up his reactions in his terrible Litany of the Lost.
In breaking of belief in human good;
In slavedom of mankind to the machine;
In havoc of hideous tyranny withstood,
And terror of atomic doom foreseen;
Deliver us from ourselves.
Chained to the wheel of progress uncontrolled;
World masterers with a foolish frightened face;
Loud speakers, leaderless and sceptic-souled;
Airplane angels, crashed from glory and grace;
Deliver us from ourselves.
In blood and bone contentiousness of nations,
And commerce’s competitive re-start,
Armed with our marvelous monkey innovations,
And unregenerate still in head and heart;
Deliver us from ourselves.
Suppose some quiet afternoon in spring,
The hour of judgement came
For me and my mistakes when journeying
Along with that defense for nullity, my name.
Suppose while sauntering in the primrosed wood,
To body and soul’s dispute a voice cried halt,
And I that instant stood
Absolved of unfulfilment and essential fault.
Suppose this resurrection, this release,
This self-surrender wrought;
And the word heard within,
Depart in peace;
Take to the everlasting all that time has taught . . .
What, for the spiritual service some foresee
Beyond probational breath,
Would then emerge from marred and mystic me
To stand with those white presences delivered through death?
DAME FELICITAS: No longer is God a pantheistic abstraction out there in starlit infinity. He is a living person and he is within man’s very self. To pass from one conception of God to the other must involve a crisis in any spiritual life.
SASSOON: Diary December 26th 1949. If the Almighty exists, what help does He give me on my journey to the grave? Has He made it any easier to get through the trials and tribulations of the last years? Bertrand Russel says that ‘unyielding despair’ is the only basis we can live on now. His attitude is understandable.
I thought; These multitudes we hold in mind –
The host of souls redeeemed –
Out of the abysm of the ages came –
Out of the spirit of man – devised or dreamed.
I thought; To the invisible I am blind;
No angels tread my nights with feet of flame;
No mystery is mine –
No whisper from that world beyond my sense.
I think; if through some chink in me could shine
But once – O but one ray
From that all-hallowing and eternal day.
Asking no more of Heaven I would go hence.
SASSOON: Diary 29th March 1951. I muddle along, still trying to evolve my spiritual faith.
I have thought about God much more intensely than ever before and the process is different. No rhapsodic excitement, no delighted sense of finding expression. Just a concentration of the mind with no preconceptions. The process appears to be authentic.
Nobody knows
Whither our delirium of invention goes.
Who turned toward time to come
Alone with heart-beats, marching to that muffled drum.
Nobody hears
Bells from beyond the silence of the years
That wait for those unborn.
O God within me, speak from your mysterious morn.
Speak, through the few,
Your light of life to nourish us anew.
Speak, for our world possessed
By demon influences of evil and unrest.
Act, as of old,
That we some dawnlit destiny may behold
From this doom-darkened place.
O move in mercy among us. Grant accepted grace.
Nobody knows
Whither our delirium of invention goes.
Who turned toward time to come
Alone with heart-beats, marching to that muffled drum.
Nobody hears
Bells from beyond the silence of theI know a universe beyond me;
Power that pervades the fluctuant soul,
Signalling my brain it would unbond me
And make heart’s imperfection whole.
I, this chance-comer from creation,
Blind subject to defending day;
I, this blithe structure of sensation,
Prisoned and impassioned by my clay.
SASSOON: What worries me is the spectacle these poems present, of someone turning away from the business of life, as though nothing else mattered except his soul. Humanity in general not admitted, is the notice posted on the poet’s door. Mr Sassoon is too busy with his spiritual problems to receive visitors or undertake any commentaries on what is happening in the outside world. The Wiltshire minor prophet is composing his ultimate banalities about the back of beyond.
This making is a mystery. Me He made
And left to build my being as best I could:
A child afraid who for protection prayed,
Worsted by wrong, but wanting to grow good,
A man betrayed yet blessed by circumstance,
Seeking self-knowledge, learning through mistake,
To shaped experience half compelled by chance.
What work was His, where mind itself must make?
It is He that hath made us, and not we,
Ourselves. One moment’s aftercome I live,
Flawed with inherited humanity,
And fooled by imperfections wrought through race.
This He first fashioned; this He can forgive
When granting His unapprehended grace.
Mute, with signs I speak:
Blind, by groping seek:
Heed; yet nothing hear:
Feel; find no one near.
Deaf, eclipsed, and dumb,
Through this gloom I come
On the time-path trod
Toward ungranted God.
Carnal, I can claim
Only His known name.
Dying, can but be
One with Him in me.